I do not desire to be ordinary. To embrace complacency and the mundane life. To embrace life yes, but a life that is full. Full of what? Of love and adventure. Joy and trials, shared alongside those I share life with. To live every day that my maker gives me on this earth with a fervor that rivals the pounding of the incoming tide on the shores of the sea. Do I desire to much? I question this quite often, not knowing if my desires are unrealistic or unattainable. I have always been told to dream big, to aspire great things to happen and they will. Or so I have been told. But what if that is not true? What if it is all a dream we are led to believe that will never come true.What happens when our expectations do not measure up with the reality we are presented with? What happens when discontentment settles in and begins to resonate deep within the crevices of our lives until we begin to sink under its suffocating grasp? What do we do? How do you respond? I am about to enter into my last semester as an undergrad. I cannot believe how fast the time has gone and that this is the beginning of the end.That all I have come to know and to love will soon change once again. I have realized that I disdain change. It takes me quite some time to grow truly comfortable in my environment only to have it blown away in the fleeting change of the wind. I run from change and cling to what I know. There is comfort and security in it. I have a familiar acquaintance with it that I am not willing to give up without a fight. But that is not what my God calls me to. It is not how he calls me live. Granted, he gives us the gift of security and comfort when he deems best at various times in our lives. But he calls us to live by faith and to trust Him for all things and in all things.To depend on Him, not only in words but in deeds. It is so easy to pay service with our lips but never show the evidence of a changed life and a changed heart. I yearn to be used for the glory and honor of His name. What will this cost? I dare say that the cost will be great, but the reward will be far greater. What am I willing to give for the sake of His name? What am I willing to give? To let go of my dreams, of myself is no easy thing. But that is what He asks, does he not? I am beginning to realize this all anew and to trust Him for his provision in things. That He will place me where He wants me and that He will use me accordingly. Obedience and a willingness to be used. I am excited to see how He moves.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Extraordinary
I do not desire to be ordinary. To embrace complacency and the mundane life. To embrace life yes, but a life that is full. Full of what? Of love and adventure. Joy and trials, shared alongside those I share life with. To live every day that my maker gives me on this earth with a fervor that rivals the pounding of the incoming tide on the shores of the sea. Do I desire to much? I question this quite often, not knowing if my desires are unrealistic or unattainable. I have always been told to dream big, to aspire great things to happen and they will. Or so I have been told. But what if that is not true? What if it is all a dream we are led to believe that will never come true.What happens when our expectations do not measure up with the reality we are presented with? What happens when discontentment settles in and begins to resonate deep within the crevices of our lives until we begin to sink under its suffocating grasp? What do we do? How do you respond? I am about to enter into my last semester as an undergrad. I cannot believe how fast the time has gone and that this is the beginning of the end.That all I have come to know and to love will soon change once again. I have realized that I disdain change. It takes me quite some time to grow truly comfortable in my environment only to have it blown away in the fleeting change of the wind. I run from change and cling to what I know. There is comfort and security in it. I have a familiar acquaintance with it that I am not willing to give up without a fight. But that is not what my God calls me to. It is not how he calls me live. Granted, he gives us the gift of security and comfort when he deems best at various times in our lives. But he calls us to live by faith and to trust Him for all things and in all things.To depend on Him, not only in words but in deeds. It is so easy to pay service with our lips but never show the evidence of a changed life and a changed heart. I yearn to be used for the glory and honor of His name. What will this cost? I dare say that the cost will be great, but the reward will be far greater. What am I willing to give for the sake of His name? What am I willing to give? To let go of my dreams, of myself is no easy thing. But that is what He asks, does he not? I am beginning to realize this all anew and to trust Him for his provision in things. That He will place me where He wants me and that He will use me accordingly. Obedience and a willingness to be used. I am excited to see how He moves.
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